An EXCELLENT wife (part 1)

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I knew I was right.
I had all the evidence tucked away in a file.
All my ducks were in a row.
I was ready for my chance to present my case.

I waited for the perfect time.
The kids were at my in laws.
My husband was heading out for the evening.
I couldn’t wait to tell God what my husband had or hadn’t done.

Prepared to get down on my knees & fold my hands like a perfect church girl…I felt a nudge.

“Read Proverbs 31”.

Hesitantly, I pulled out my bible and began to read.
A familiar passage …. one that I often read and highlighted the characteristics I proudly accomplish all the while ignoring the ones I desperately need to work on.

It felt so unfair. Here I was bringing my case before The Lord and before I could open my heart, he was breaking my will.

If you are a wife or ever hope to be one….
you must know this. You are worth the chase, you are worth a beautiful diamond & a celebration of vows in front of your family & friends. You are worth just because roses , date nights & a make up free day.

But….

He is worth it too. He’s worth your understanding . He’s worth your patience. He’s worth your forgiveness. He’s worth your selflessness.

Before you dwell on the worst of him, be truthful about the worst of yourself. You are both worth the sufficient grace of God through the reconciliation power of Jesus.

Take this journey with me…
from good to great
from great to excellent.

Words of Affirmation

I consider myself to be a fairly confident person.
That confidence came after years of low self-esteem, people pleasing & broken relationships.
I was forced into the process of becoming whole when I truly grasped the fact that God wanted to use me to minister to others.
Sure…God uses broken vessels who are willing to admit that their strengths are only strong through Christ. But just like any teacher, He also desires us to mature into well rounded people grounded in the truth of our identity through Him and not defined by the weakest parts of ourselves.

I have accepted that I’m quirky.
I’d rather be in a room full of books than a room full of people.
Although I like make up, handbags & designer clothes, I feel much more comfortable in a pair of jeans, a comfy cardigan & ballet flats.
I love church. I do. But my greatest dream is to teach small bible studies in a coffee shop, at a university or in a field filled with underprivileged families who just want hope & truth to cling to.
I like 80’s rock & CCM worship.
I don’t always have the time or money to keep my eyebrows, toes & hands manicured to a t.
I’m not hoarder messy, but I’m not a neat freak.
I’m “ok” and I’m ok with that.

I was having a pretty normal morning {except for the fact that I woke up with an overwhelming sense of exhaustion… mental & physical}.
I’d already called off work & decided today was going to be rough.
I posted a picture on Instagram of my egg white omelette, raspberry yogurt, almonds & coffee…because …well because I’m quirky. A friend wrote …

“You’re perfect.”

I gasped.
Out loud.
Me? Perfect?
I’d been called many things before.
Talented, sweet, cute.
But perfect?
My imperfect self couldn’t take it & quickly stumbled to find a rebuttal.

In that moment His Love washed over me.
“You ARE perfect,” He whispered.
His words resounded in my heart…
You are fearfully and wonderfully made.<

I am my Father's and He is all.

I wept.

To some, words are empty.
Words are intentions without action filled with flattery & motives.
To me, Words are truth.
I can hear a person's truth when they speak.

And I heard this voice…the voice behind the voice that told me today…

"You are perfect."

With flaws and all I whisper…

"I am perfect. ”

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